How i Feel For You

it so manys day i go by and i think damn i wish i could express myself to him the way that he heexpresses hisself to me... i want him to knw how i feeel about bout him and that i love him so much that i cant really show.. why? ive been hurt so much in the past that when i come to realized that i liked him i was scared to go aftre him becuz in my head i didnt blieve in love... but he showed me wrong that u can love somebody and they can love u back... and that what BJ showed me that love can be true.. i knw i need to work on myself but everytime im doin good sumtin always happens... and i feel like i need to work on myself real hard so he want leave me.... Bj. i want u to knw that u mean the world to me.. ive never had a boy show me they love and and love me back for who i am i knw i may not get to see u often as i want.. but i really do love you and even we was to every break up i knw it wud hurt me like hell... i honestly wudnt let u go if u tried to leave me... i want so much for us but it make me mad that the things i want for us cant happen right now.. like i want to be with u more. and be able to do stuff for you and for us jus to live together i understand that sum ppl get tired of ppl, but i wudnt let that way get with us i wud jus be happy to be with you alot... u make me happy and if it wasnt for you i wasnt be tryin to make a change in my life and be tryin to work on my atttitude but jus knw i am tryin my hardest to work on it knw it may seem like im not workin on it but bae i really am.... i jus want for us to be happy and im happy with you it like every since that week u stayed with me i knw we wasnt together yet but that week proved to me how much i really loved you and stuff and how bad i really wanted to be with you.. I LOVE YOU BRANDON BERNARD MCGOWEN

Let Me Grow Up!

sometime i think back i wish my parents would have jus been a little hard on me about gettin a job and stuff and let me do things on my own because now that im 20 almost 21 im not prepared for this real world ive been baby'd my whole life.. and now it payin off that im not ready.. i wanta be able to do things on my own and feel independent. and now that i wanta try things like move to dallas and get a job and venture out and do things on my own they dnt want to let me.. im really getting to the point where im bout to say FUCKK it and jus leave.. i knw if i need any help gettin there i can always call my fam in dallas and they will give me directions on what to do..but at times ion knw how to jus come out and tell my mama nem to jus let me go and realize that they raised me to do the right things. and just know that i jus wanta venture out and do things on my own and see the world.. i jus want them to please JUS LET ME GROW UP!! u have raised me the right way that i knw wrong from right i jus wanta be a INDEPENDENT WOMEN and be able to get my own and do on my own..