How i Feel For You

it so manys day i go by and i think damn i wish i could express myself to him the way that he heexpresses hisself to me... i want him to knw how i feeel about bout him and that i love him so much that i cant really show.. why? ive been hurt so much in the past that when i come to realized that i liked him i was scared to go aftre him becuz in my head i didnt blieve in love... but he showed me wrong that u can love somebody and they can love u back... and that what BJ showed me that love can be true.. i knw i need to work on myself but everytime im doin good sumtin always happens... and i feel like i need to work on myself real hard so he want leave me.... Bj. i want u to knw that u mean the world to me.. ive never had a boy show me they love and and love me back for who i am i knw i may not get to see u often as i want.. but i really do love you and even we was to every break up i knw it wud hurt me like hell... i honestly wudnt let u go if u tried to leave me... i want so much for us but it make me mad that the things i want for us cant happen right now.. like i want to be with u more. and be able to do stuff for you and for us jus to live together i understand that sum ppl get tired of ppl, but i wudnt let that way get with us i wud jus be happy to be with you alot... u make me happy and if it wasnt for you i wasnt be tryin to make a change in my life and be tryin to work on my atttitude but jus knw i am tryin my hardest to work on it knw it may seem like im not workin on it but bae i really am.... i jus want for us to be happy and im happy with you it like every since that week u stayed with me i knw we wasnt together yet but that week proved to me how much i really loved you and stuff and how bad i really wanted to be with you.. I LOVE YOU BRANDON BERNARD MCGOWEN